~~~"I don't understand a God who would let us meet, if there's no way we could ever be together."~~~
I’m sorry my luvlie… That we’re kinda goin’ through the same thing. SOMEDAY, I guarantee you, he’ll realize how much you’re worth keeping…Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember
You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I’ll admit that I was glad it was over
“The Vow”
Watched this movie tonight…
Don’t we all want something like that?
A second chance to get things straight? Or another chance to end things right?
I’d want that…
Lose everything, then gain some things back again.
To forget little details so I can live through moments again.
I’d really want that…
Confusion is keeping me awake… (did my nails today, BTW..:)
(via awesome-pictures)
Aşkim… :(
And I are on pissy mode again…
I think this person’s words pierce through like no other man I’ve met. It’s like when he says it and he’s mad, it’s the worst thing that can ever be said to a human being. It feels so degrading.
I’m pissed ‘cause I feel frustrated. I’m frustrated ‘cause I terribly miss him. Although I’m constantly letting him know that I miss him, he won’t even at least try to fix that a bit.
He was the first person that popped in my mind when I won that bus fare. I’m NEVER the first person in his mind.period.
I love him and he says he loves me too. A lot. Maybe I should stop believing that too?
It’s one of those moments when I feel like I’m hanging on to nothing.
CUTTING TIES
for me means throwing all the negativity away. You don’t lecture me about righteousness and tell me what to do. ‘Cause if you do you’ll get f***ed. Look what happened.
! ALL IN CAPS. !!!
(via everything-inspiring)
I miss Aşkim. I can’t wait for my hug soon…
x_x ‘cause I can still have ‘em now••
can’t sleep.
At 130h: have to wake up at 6am tomorrow (or later) to get to class at 8.
Class ends at 11 then another class from 11 ‘till 1220h.
1220-1400h need to finish a 10 page paper report about Dupuytren’s contracture “Viking’s disease”
Eyeball and Brain dissection in class at 1400h that ends at 1700h.
Get home at 1800h;
At home, start 10 page essay for ENGLISH about rape,
remind myself to have dinner,
finish reading “Rape, A Love Story” novel,
put bandage over wrist (to relieve pain),
Try to get some rest/sleep to get energy for whole day work the next day.
Uff.
